CLEARblue as day...

Well ladies, its back to the drawing board. Its 15 DPO and its negative. No period yet but thats weird...hmmm. In lighter news, I lost 22lbs!!!

Pregnant... by Faith

About four days ago, I received a positive ovulation test! This is about the right time as last month. So, I went out and bought some prenatal vitamins as if I'm already two weeks pregnant! I have lost 15lbs so far and I an going to continue losing the next three months. Then, I will increase my calories a little, but stay ON PLAN so that I don't gain so much. I already know I'm high risk based on my last pregnancy, but I'm ready! 

So this is what is going to happen next. I will be fine through April 22nd which will be my 2nd trimester. At the beginning of my 2nd trimester, I have to get a surgery called cerclage. It's when your cervix is stitched up so that you won't dialate too early. In my last pregnancy, I dialated 2 inches at week 19 and spent 4 weeks in the hospital laying upside to keep my bag from falling out. I was on 100% bedrest! I have to do #1 AND #2 LAYING DOWN! I did all of that for him to get sick and die at week 24. It was the worse feeling ever, but I would do it all again just hold my little Prince one more time. 😔

 So my businesses are now are setup for me to work from home and still keep my same pay. I will just need to send my assistant to the meetings. I am SUPER EXCITED to be going on this last trip in February because after April, its all shutting down. Conceiving this cycle will give me a due date of October 7, 2016! Not too close to Christmas, anniversary, or birthday...perfect!

As always, I leave you with the positive message of Not Giving Up even when it LOOKS nearly impossible, because with God, ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE! Check in on January 29th when I will do my pregnancy test LIVE and confirm what I already know...I'M PREGNANT!

Haven't post in a while because my smiley face won't go away!

It is DAY 8 of the blinking smiley face and I don't know how to turn this off! Technically, I'm on CD25 which in the female cycle world should be the last week before AF (Aunt FLOW) comes! So why haven't I peaked? I had a peak 2 days after the last chlomid pill but that couldn't have been real right? 

I mean chlomid is supposed to work 5-10 days after your last pill! So I peaked and then for about 6 days it was negative. Then on CD14, I went back into high fertility and have been there since! I'm using up all my OPK sticks!!!

So I have emailed my doctor and asked him if he could take me off chlomid and lets make this thing happen manually...YES, IVF! So let's see what he says. In the meantime, I'm gonna take a random PT to make sure I'm not accidentally preggos!

Down 8.6lbs in 10 days! And Embarrassing Confession

So, I haven't been as transparent with you as you may think. I have a confession to make. I have gained so much weight over the past 10 years and now I have reached the embarrassing highest weight 317.8 pounds. When I married my husband, I was 80lbs lighter, but when we first met 3 years earlier, I was 100lbs lighter. This is embarrassing how I let myself go. But I will not stay in the past, I must move forward like the great psalmist Israel Houghton says. 

But that's not all. I have been hiding the fact that my blood pressure have reached an all-time high of 150/100. If you read the charts this is stage 2 hypertension and puts me at serious risk of having a heart attack, stroke, or even death. Well, I'M NOT going out like this! I refuse to deny my future children the ability to spend ACTIVE time with their mother being demobilized!

So, I have put my money where my mouth is. I've been saying for months that I was going to join the Quick Weight Loss Centers and on Monday, December 14th, I DID! I wanted to keep it a secret because every time I started something in the past I failed and I didn't want to disappoint myself again or my husband. But I looked fear in the face and I said you will not cripple me! And then I started thinking about love because perfect love casts out fear. And I am braced and put it towards my health and wellness. This is not about losing weight anymore or fitting into some jeans. This is now about loving and living to see this whole journey to fertility come to past.

Natural approach attempt 1

So still no PPT and no POT so I am resulting to drastic measures. I'm going to see what would happen if I could not eat sugars and carbs for 21 days and do a Paleo natural diet to see if my body would auto correct itself. Wish me luck!

Cycle over, now its Chlomid time!

So I had a regular 7 day period that was pretty much textbook, I'm starting to think that the more I change my diet and exercise that this lifestyle change will change my body internally. 

I am not giving up. Me getting pregnant last year is PROOF that I can conceive! I had the perfect pregnancy until my cervix started to open at 21 weeks. An incompetent cervix is what they called it. So now that we know what the problem is, we can make provisions to keep it closed with a surgery called Cerclage.

Ok folks, my doctors appointment is on Tuesday and I will keep you updated with the latest on my condition.

Could this be...BLOOD!

I checked my Fertility Friend app today to see how many days has passed since my last period...57 days! Today, I have a period that has been on for 3 days. Only been using one pad per day. Not really normal huh?

Well, the last time I was on my period, it lasted for 6 weeks! This will not be the case this time. Pray its only 5-7 days long. I'm saving up to pay for IVF starting in January if I'm not pregnant by then. Pray I get pregnant because IVF...at least $10k+! I would love to use that money for my 10 year anniversary trip TO PARIS!

Nausea?! Pregnant or Metformin side effect?

I have been having severe nausea for the past 4 days and I am hoping it's because I have a BFP (big fat positive) test and its not a side effect of the Metformin I've been taking. 

I am about to take a test, but I'm so hesistant because I don't want to be disappointed.  Should I test? Ok, you win! If it's not positive,  I'm going to stop taking the medicine because I feel HORRIBLE! 😩😳😷

7 Days of Metformin and still no change YET

I have been taking Metformin at 500mg and getting ready to increase to 1000mg today. The nausea is bad! But I can't give up.  I know it works with chlomid but I'm not about to pay $$$ for more medication, so this needs to work. I try not to think about it. Last time I got pregnant,  I was secretly taking chlomid but I didn't tell my husband because I didn't want to add pressure to our life.

But when my doctor measured the baby, he dated the embryo 2 weeks BEFORE I started taking the chlomid. I did 3 rounds earlier that year and took 3 months off before restarting. So we think the rounds actually prepared my body and then it kicked in months later! I have faith it WILL happen again.

Metformin got me Feeling like crap!

Day 3 after my negative test results and well...I FEEL LIKE CRAP! I'm taking Metformin now which is a medicine that is linked to treating PCOS.  Well, the side effects got me feeling nauseous,  so much so that I had to take another pregnancy test just to make sure I wasn't having morning sickness! And of course, the test was a negative which disappointed my hubby. I am going to try to continue taking it, but I don't know how much more I can take!

Stay posted. I am going to start the natural method instead.  It's just so darn expensive to do this. I wish money was no object. I would fix myself...