Pregnant... by Faith

About four days ago, I received a positive ovulation test! This is about the right time as last month. So, I went out and bought some prenatal vitamins as if I'm already two weeks pregnant! I have lost 15lbs so far and I an going to continue losing the next three months. Then, I will increase my calories a little, but stay ON PLAN so that I don't gain so much. I already know I'm high risk based on my last pregnancy, but I'm ready! 

So this is what is going to happen next. I will be fine through April 22nd which will be my 2nd trimester. At the beginning of my 2nd trimester, I have to get a surgery called cerclage. It's when your cervix is stitched up so that you won't dialate too early. In my last pregnancy, I dialated 2 inches at week 19 and spent 4 weeks in the hospital laying upside to keep my bag from falling out. I was on 100% bedrest! I have to do #1 AND #2 LAYING DOWN! I did all of that for him to get sick and die at week 24. It was the worse feeling ever, but I would do it all again just hold my little Prince one more time. 😔

 So my businesses are now are setup for me to work from home and still keep my same pay. I will just need to send my assistant to the meetings. I am SUPER EXCITED to be going on this last trip in February because after April, its all shutting down. Conceiving this cycle will give me a due date of October 7, 2016! Not too close to Christmas, anniversary, or birthday...perfect!

As always, I leave you with the positive message of Not Giving Up even when it LOOKS nearly impossible, because with God, ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE! Check in on January 29th when I will do my pregnancy test LIVE and confirm what I already know...I'M PREGNANT!

Haven't post in a while because my smiley face won't go away!

It is DAY 8 of the blinking smiley face and I don't know how to turn this off! Technically, I'm on CD25 which in the female cycle world should be the last week before AF (Aunt FLOW) comes! So why haven't I peaked? I had a peak 2 days after the last chlomid pill but that couldn't have been real right? 

I mean chlomid is supposed to work 5-10 days after your last pill! So I peaked and then for about 6 days it was negative. Then on CD14, I went back into high fertility and have been there since! I'm using up all my OPK sticks!!!

So I have emailed my doctor and asked him if he could take me off chlomid and lets make this thing happen manually...YES, IVF! So let's see what he says. In the meantime, I'm gonna take a random PT to make sure I'm not accidentally preggos!

5 days of Smiley faces!!!

I am growing more and more frustrated with this body of mine! Today, I took another Clearblue digital OPK and the smiley face was blinking for the 5th day in a row! The blinking smiley face mean high fertility or high estrogen and SUPPOSED to mean you are about to have a LH surge for ovulation to occur. Well, I have had no signs of ovulation either from cervical mucous or basal temperature. But I have to keep focusing on the fact that I HAVE been pregnant before and that thought of "maybe you can't get pregnant " no longer works! Now, the thought is, how many cycles is this gonna take? If I am not either ovulating or positive pregnancy test (remember Thanksgiving week when I was out of town and couldn't test or temp?), well its very possible I ovulated that week and if I did, I should have a positive pregnancy test (PPT) by Dec 14th. If its not, I will restart the chlomid cycle and here we go again!

After 10 months, I back!

So I took a break from ttc (trying to conceive) to focus on my foundation and get my head right. So I am going through a pretty tough time right now. I restarted Chlomid on Nov 13th which was CD5 for me and took 💊50mg for 5 days. I use Clearblue Digital OPK to get a more accurate reading. The 1st after my last pill I had a solid smiley face which means peak fertility. Well, thats too soon so I disregarded and BD every other day until the week of Thanksgiving happened!

So we went home for the holidays and which was the most critical week of all! I was supposed to ovulate any day between Nov 22nd - Nov 29th. Thanksgiving was Nov 24th, so we had to find creative ways to "make the deposit." And guess what, I left both my Digital OPK AND my thermometer do I could confirm ovulation. We arrived back home and I immediately tested. My digital OPK was blank face. My BBT was normal. I am left only wondering...