20lbs down and still no baby!

..Today I hit a HUGE milestone in my weight loss journey! I am officially down 20 pounds!!! I started my journey on December 16 and today is January 21 so that is a little bit over a month. I am doing the Quick weight-loss system but I'm also learning new habits about portion sizes, drinking a lot of water and exercising about 3 to 4 times a week. For me is really not about losing weight but about retaining healthy habits that will keep my blood pressure and cholesterol levels low and healthy. But I did treat myself to a new outfit!

 It was a wake up call when the doctor told me that I was close to having a heart attack at 36. My health age was 76 and my joints and muscles was always sore. Today, I am one step closer to reaching my goal finally! 20 pounds down and 80 pounds to go but taking it one day at a time...

So my gynecologist told me that if I just lost about 20 pounds, that could be a huge jumpstart in my fertility journey. So right now I am just trying to wait out these last two weeks to see if my last cycle actually took the bait. I have eight more days before I can test or six more days if I want to use early detection test

Pregnant... by Faith

About four days ago, I received a positive ovulation test! This is about the right time as last month. So, I went out and bought some prenatal vitamins as if I'm already two weeks pregnant! I have lost 15lbs so far and I an going to continue losing the next three months. Then, I will increase my calories a little, but stay ON PLAN so that I don't gain so much. I already know I'm high risk based on my last pregnancy, but I'm ready! 

So this is what is going to happen next. I will be fine through April 22nd which will be my 2nd trimester. At the beginning of my 2nd trimester, I have to get a surgery called cerclage. It's when your cervix is stitched up so that you won't dialate too early. In my last pregnancy, I dialated 2 inches at week 19 and spent 4 weeks in the hospital laying upside to keep my bag from falling out. I was on 100% bedrest! I have to do #1 AND #2 LAYING DOWN! I did all of that for him to get sick and die at week 24. It was the worse feeling ever, but I would do it all again just hold my little Prince one more time. 😔

 So my businesses are now are setup for me to work from home and still keep my same pay. I will just need to send my assistant to the meetings. I am SUPER EXCITED to be going on this last trip in February because after April, its all shutting down. Conceiving this cycle will give me a due date of October 7, 2016! Not too close to Christmas, anniversary, or birthday...perfect!

As always, I leave you with the positive message of Not Giving Up even when it LOOKS nearly impossible, because with God, ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE! Check in on January 29th when I will do my pregnancy test LIVE and confirm what I already know...I'M PREGNANT!

Haven't post in a while because my smiley face won't go away!

It is DAY 8 of the blinking smiley face and I don't know how to turn this off! Technically, I'm on CD25 which in the female cycle world should be the last week before AF (Aunt FLOW) comes! So why haven't I peaked? I had a peak 2 days after the last chlomid pill but that couldn't have been real right? 

I mean chlomid is supposed to work 5-10 days after your last pill! So I peaked and then for about 6 days it was negative. Then on CD14, I went back into high fertility and have been there since! I'm using up all my OPK sticks!!!

So I have emailed my doctor and asked him if he could take me off chlomid and lets make this thing happen manually...YES, IVF! So let's see what he says. In the meantime, I'm gonna take a random PT to make sure I'm not accidentally preggos!

Could I be ovulating 3 days after my period? Is a specialist needed?

I just completed a perfect period week! You may be saying, "How in the world can anyone have a perfect period?" Well for starters, my period came on his own and I did not need assistance. I had a period for seven days with no cramps, heavy bleeding or clots! And then I took chlomid days 3-7. Now on CD9, I have a smiley face ovulation! But is it false?

It must be because you are supposed to have a body temperature shift and I haven't. After this cycle, I have to be referred to a Reproduction Specialist. The procedure I would get costs around $10k-$25k depending on the procedure. Now, we do have a little savings, but not quite $10k-$25k to blow on fertility treatments! So, we pray and believe.

Christmas Wish

This year, I don't feel the festivities of Christmas simply because we are celebrating next month when we go on our vacation. Nevertheless, I thank God you all are having a great time today. I only asked God for 1 thing this Christmas and its a little delayed but not denied! I think it may come next month! That gift is a BFP (Big Fat Positive) and a healthy 40 weeks! I just want to say MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Down 8.6lbs in 10 days! And Embarrassing Confession

So, I haven't been as transparent with you as you may think. I have a confession to make. I have gained so much weight over the past 10 years and now I have reached the embarrassing highest weight 317.8 pounds. When I married my husband, I was 80lbs lighter, but when we first met 3 years earlier, I was 100lbs lighter. This is embarrassing how I let myself go. But I will not stay in the past, I must move forward like the great psalmist Israel Houghton says. 

But that's not all. I have been hiding the fact that my blood pressure have reached an all-time high of 150/100. If you read the charts this is stage 2 hypertension and puts me at serious risk of having a heart attack, stroke, or even death. Well, I'M NOT going out like this! I refuse to deny my future children the ability to spend ACTIVE time with their mother being demobilized!

So, I have put my money where my mouth is. I've been saying for months that I was going to join the Quick Weight Loss Centers and on Monday, December 14th, I DID! I wanted to keep it a secret because every time I started something in the past I failed and I didn't want to disappoint myself again or my husband. But I looked fear in the face and I said you will not cripple me! And then I started thinking about love because perfect love casts out fear. And I am braced and put it towards my health and wellness. This is not about losing weight anymore or fitting into some jeans. This is now about loving and living to see this whole journey to fertility come to past.

Aunty Flow is here! Find out WHY I'm happy about that. Round 2 begins

So it is official. AF is here! Wait...AF IS HERE! That brownish spotting was indeed a sign of things to come. But why am I excited about having a period right now? Shouldn't I be upset that I am not pregnant? Well, I am a little bit, but you do not understand, so sit down and let me tell you a little story.

I have to take two medications in order for me to go through a fertility cycle. The first medication is called Provera. That medication is a hormone that I take for 10 days and then five days later my period comes. Previously, I have not been able to have a regular period without it being induced by this medication. Once my period starts, I take the second medication on day three of my cycle. That medication is call Chlomid. Chlomid is a medication that causes me to ovulate 5-10 days after taking it. And then I wait 10-12 days to test for pregnancy. If negative, I start Provera again. The whole cycle is supposed to be about 30-33 days.

So why am I so excited about having my period. It's because I have not taking Provera this month! In fact, I was just about to take the first pill for Round 2, when I found out that I was spotting. I didn't want to take the pill because I knew that if I did and I was having implantation bleeding then it was going to make me bleed more and that's not good! 

So I'm excited about the fact that I am having a regular hormonal experience! It is certain that I ovulated 13 days before my period. This means that my cycle was 40 days long. I am wondering, should I just go ahead and skip Chlomid to see if I will also ovulate on my own?

I keep hearing the scripture with man things are impossible but with God all things are possible. It's possible to get pregnant with Chlomid and without. The question is what method am I supposed to use?

We never got a spike in BBT which means that it was an anovulation cycle (a cycle where the egg did not release). This means Chlomid is necessary in my case. 

It could not have been the week we were away in Michigan because if I would have ovulated my basal body temperature would have been elevated for the direction of the luteal phase. When I got back home my temperature was the same 97.70! It stayed that temperature plus or minus one or two degrees.

 So the lesson that we learned this cycle is that we will have to do the bed dance (bd) EVERYDAY once we get the positive ovulation or solid smiley face, AND confirm with BBT, AND lose weight/make natural food choices to increase my chances of naturally healing PCOS. 

As always ladies, don't give up, don't give in, and always do the dance!